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Showing posts with label Anger. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Anger. Show all posts

Friday, August 16, 2013

Flare Request Friday: Scale-Tipping

I want everyone to get what they deserve. Except for me of course.  

My concept of justice by nature is warped and sick. It looks like the bad people being punished, and the ones who have made mistakes to receive retribution. Even vengeance.  I have been known to take in a good revenge movie from time to time. Batman is my favorite superhero, dispensing justice without too much regard for due process.  

Before you are tempted to take that on a grand, societal-level scale, know this: it takes place in the smallest of ways with the smallest injustices. The dumbest example that probably reflects the poorest on me is my driving. You would be amazed at the sheer weight of injustice I have suffered at the hands of other careless, horrible drivers. But not quite as amazed as you would be that in my mind I have never made a mistake or been [unduly] unkind in my life as a driver. The scales of justice in my sad little heart and mind are forever tipped in my favor.  

But then, last night as we are meeting with a couple in Sioux City, dreaming and plotting about what this crazy adventure of a new community of faith will look like, we looked at a passage in the Scripture I will continue to chew on the rest of my days.

He has shown you, O mortal, what is good.
    And what does the Lord require of you?
To act justly and to love mercy
    and to walk humbly with your God.  
_Micah 6.8

It is a passage I have read (and even sung) for decades, and it still needles me. Many translations read "do justice"...or "do justly".  It means to do right in everything for everyone. I think most often for me it has been reduced to making sure people get what they deserve. That is how I most often process justice, and can even get a little high in dreaming about big scary people getting what's coming to them. As if wrongs are righted with more wrong, more hurt, more physical, emotional, economic, and spiritual violence.  

Yet, as with everything in the Scripture, YOU HAVE TO KEEP READING. Lest our concept of justice be reduced to a perverted vengeance, the very next words are: love mercy. By its very definition, mercy is people NOT getting what they deserve. So how do people do justice without people getting what they deserve? What kind of justice is that?

Apparently there is justice that leads to healing, not punishment. There is a justice that leads to peace, not to further division, wounds, and hatred. There is a justice that loves mercy. The kind of justice that rescues and restores.  

If your justice doesn't love mercy, it's not justice. It's something smaller, weaker, and warped. It may feel good, but it is ugly and dangerous..it is a cancer, a drug. If your justice is about everyone getting what they deserve, your world is small and sad, because no one gets what they deserve.  

We spent some time last night reflecting on a paraphrase of some of Jesus' words, and I was devastated by them:

For I was hungry, while you had all you needed. I was thirsty, but you drank bottled water. I was a stranger, and you wanted me deported. I needed clothes, but you wanted more clothes. I was sick, and you pointed out the behaviors that led to my sickness. I was in prison, and you said I was getting what I deserved. (From the Richard E. Stearns Version of Matthew 25)

God help me. I am guilty. Thank you God for not giving me what I deserve, but mercy and grace in the love of Christ, and an opportunity to see you redefine my self-righteous sense of justice.

Will you pray for me, and for the communities of faith in Bangor and Sioux City, that our definition of justice would have mercy at the center, and that justice would flow in our communities?    

Thursday, August 1, 2013

Throwback Thursday: Going Hulk with God


"Break my heart for what breaks Yours...everything I am for your kingdom's cause."

Today I gave a message using the Incredible Hulk as a backdrop to talk about the good, the bad, and the ugly side of anger. We looked at an assumption that many people have and wrestle with - the assumption that God is angry and just looking for a chance to zap someone.
When we read the Old Testament, we do find a God angry, but the anger He feels is most often directed at people who should know better, His people. His anger is the fury of a good Dad whose heart is broken at the mess His kids have made, a God passionate about reclaiming a broken people, broken culture, broken lives, and broken cities.

If God doesn't rage at the mess we've made, He is not God.
If we don't rage at the mess we've made in healthy ways, we are not His people.

I struggle with anger personally, and not the good kind. I can go Hulk with the best of them, though I think in recent years, with the work of the good news deep in my bones, I can see the selfish, petty, small anger give way to something more constructive and centered on God's heart than on my own calloused one.

Being made in the image of God, we see His identity reflected in our own, and a part of that identity as kids made in the image of God is that we get angry about what God gets angry about. We see this perfectly in the life - and anger - of Jesus. Jesus is mad often. Never at the drunks, the demon-possessed, the Romans, the untouchables, the prostitutes...He rages at the religious. In John 2 He goes Hulk over the injustice and religion that oppressed the impoverished seeking forgiveness.  He rages against people who loved business more than helping folks take a step closer to God. Later in John 11 we find Jesus raging at death itself as He confronts Lazarus' tomb and the devastation surrounding the death of His friend. Injustice...religion...death. These are the targets of Jesus' rage.

When you are sent to a city (and everyone is sent to their city) there are things about that city that are broken. That are sick. That are in need of hope and light and peace. We pray for eyes to see the things in us and in our community that break God's heart, the darkness Jesus came to do battle with.  May we battle like Jesus battled, loving and serving, obedient to the point of death, sacrificially, to heal the wounds of the world.

Praying for God to rescue me from a small, destructive anger and show us the hurt in Sioux City that hurts the heart of God, the wounds we are sent to dress and rage against in love. Praying that God might show you the things around you that break His heart.

What breaks your heart about the city you are called to?

If you want to listen to the message, click here.

Sunday, June 30, 2013

Leading with a Broken Heart

"Break my heart for what breaks Yours...everything I am for your kingdom's cause."

Today I gave a message using the Incredible Hulk as a backdrop to talk about the good, the bad, and the ugly side of anger. We looked at an assumption that many people have and wrestle with - the assumption that God is angry and just looking for a chance to zap someone.
When we read the Old Testament, we do find a God angry, but the anger He feels is most often directed at people who should know better, His people. His anger is the fury of a good Dad whose heart is broken at the mess His kids have made, a God passionate about reclaiming a broken people, broken culture, broken lives, and broken cities.

If God doesn't rage at the mess we've made, He is not God.
If we don't rage at the mess we've made in healthy ways, we are not His people.

I struggle with anger personally, and not the good kind. I can go Hulk with the best of them, though I think in recent years, with the work of the good news deep in my bones, I can see the selfish, petty, small anger give way to something more constructive and centered on God's heart than on my own calloused one.

Being made in the image of God, we see His identity reflected in our own, and a part of that identity as kids made in the image of God is that we get angry about what God gets angry about. We see this perfectly in the life - and anger - of Jesus. Jesus is mad often. Never at the drunks, the demon-possessed, the Romans, the untouchables, the prostitutes...He rages at the religious. In John 2 He goes Hulk over the injustice and religion that oppressed the impoverished seeking forgiveness.  He rages against people who loved business more than helping folks take a step closer to God. Later in John 11 we find Jesus raging at death itself as He confronts Lazarus' tomb and the devastation surrounding the death of His friend. Injustice...religion...death. These are the targets of Jesus' rage.

When you are sent to a city (and everyone is sent to their city) there are things about that city that are broken. That are sick. That are in need of hope and light and peace. We pray for eyes to see the things in us and in our community that break God's heart, the darkness Jesus came to do battle with.  May we battle like Jesus battled, loving and serving, obedient to the point of death, sacrificially, to heal the wounds of the world.

Praying for God to rescue me from a small, destructive anger and show us the hurt in Sioux City that hurts the heart of God, the wounds we are sent to dress and rage against in love. Praying that God might show you the things around you that break His heart.

Would love to have you pray those things with us too. Thanks.

If you want to listen to the message, click here.